Blueberries are who I am now. They’re so sweet and so perfect and also a little bit sour, like Nerds Gummy Clusters except you never reach the bottom of the bag or feel quite as sick. The weather is awful lately but still worth standing outside and eating blueberries until your shirt is soaked through with sweat.
I had no idea how good the birds had it all these other years.
Are there berries where you live? Do the birds eat them? Before blueberries, our neighbors let us eat their mulberries, and before that there were black raspberries in the park.
Are you embarrassed by your past self or are you cool with them? I don’t trust my future self either - I worry future Brooke will get older and different and care about the wrong things. Only present Brooke is the perfect, most pure form of me. Present Brooke has had about two pints of blueberries today.
I just finished reading Help Wanted after Boaz gave it to me for my birthday, and I’m excited for someone I know to read it so we can talk about it.
I hope your week is nice and full of new discoveries and amazing food.
My husband always reminds me that it is cheating to be judgmental with my past "Beth" because she didn't know what she didn't know and she did her best! (Yup, I tend to be VERY hard on myself...) Current Beth has seen the answer sheet and is now frustrated with former Beth that she took a test with the knowledge available at the time and didn't score 100%? Not fair! I could keep going with this metaphor but you get the idea...
I tend to be hard on my past, present and future selves as well. Lately, the question "Would your teenage self be proud of you now?" Has been going around in my head a lot. I'm turning 30 on Friday and my body is in rough shape. Teenage me was excited about starting their career, present me is unable to work and sometimes hardly able to leave the bed. But I'm learning more and more about myself and I live in the city with my cat. Past me would love that. When I was 16, I wrote down a life plan that included marrying a man and having 3 kids before 30. I'm not interested in men, marriage or having children. I simply thought that it was the height of achievement back then. I'm so happy that I realized that not everyone fits the mold, especially not me. And I love berries, my favorite are cherries (I know they're not technically berries). I came across a stall selling local berries today and bought a whole kg of cherries 😍🍒